Porn Isn’t Shameful

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Tatiana von Tauber

August! Courage! #Unplug!


I’m going into the primitive ages of no Internet, where the world was your oyster not a newsfeed.”

Dear friends & readers,

I’ve arrived at the door where I have to pass through it or sit outside it further disheartened from my inability to open it.

I’ve been pretty brave in everything I’ve done in my life and I’ve been called brave for doing things I didn’t realize were brave.  So, I think bravery is something I own.

However, I have a monolith ahead of me. I’ve seen it ahead for years but  gave it little attention hoping time would aid my fear of it or that it would play itself out on its own.  This has not happened.

Very much to my surprise, my magic bravery pixie dust pack is almost empty and the monolith doesn’t seem to be sizing down. I think I waited too long maybe as I’ve walked a dark corridor for years, not moving ahead but instead opening all the side doors so that I could move somewhere while I saved my sanity and built up courage to move towards that door that was like an arrow from my feet…but the truth is, I just chicken out every time. Every. Fucking. Time.

I’m disappointed and just frustrated that this one door creates so much turmoil for me yet it’s the one I keep getting led to, no matter which way I go. To be honest, I really don’t know if I can open it.  I don’t get scared off by fears but seems I have an exception.  This is very unusual, unfamiliar and defeating for me, which is why I suppose, I don’t want to give up.  But I do. But I don’t. But I do. But I don’t. But I don’t know.

I’m taking time off from social media and basically the Internet for the month of August.  I’m going into the primitive ages of no Internet, where the world was your oyster not a newsfeed.  It’s my birthday month. It’s my peace of mind gift to myself.

I am on holiday with my daughters seeking to center my soul, inspire my mind, have lots of fun and with some luck, find some extra courage to open the door …or courage to deal with the defeat and move on.

Painting isn’t much affected by all this so I will continue painting my second ART PORN collection upon my return to Savannah.  I’ve finished one painting so far and it’s quite pornographic, more so than my last ten paintings of the original ART PORN, but still so, so sexy and erotic and beautiful.  Exciting.  I look forward to speaking more about it as the collection develops.

Enjoy your summer everyone.  I’ll be back in September.

~ Tatiana von Tauber


#artporn #courage #unplug

Returning to Porn

I spent 5 to 6  months doing not much but tending to my children’s needs and being surrounded by porn as discreetly as possible. Talk about your dichotomy on the mommy spectrum, but that’s what it took to get the collection painted and that’s what I’m going back to.

Since my controversial ART PORN (nsfw) show in March I’ve been in a bit of an artistic funk.  A good friend who’s done shows told me, “Don’t be surprised if you hit a bump of depression afterwards…”.  Sigh.  I can’t say depression but definitely a funk.  A big funk.  An overwhelming drop from a high that was 6 months in the making from conception to completion funk. It was in fact the “end of the project funk” and it’s been a while since I experienced it. It slowly developed as each painting I attempted subsequently didn’t quite provide the same wow factor nor pleasure to paint.

I resisted jumping right back into painting porn after the last collection because I needed a break from all the genitalia and sexual imagery that really just desensitized me.  I was tired of looking at it. I’m not kidding. How do men do this all the time? (Though, for a while there, it had its perks.)

I spent 5 to 6 months doing not much but tending to my children’s needs and being surrounded by porn as discreetly as possible. Talk about your dichotomy on the mommy spectrum, but that’s what it took to get the collection painted and that’s what I’m going back to.  It’s time for the next rush.


A cropped portion of the newest  and still unfinished erotic art I’m working on for my next sexy collection. I think you get the hint. 

Originally I was so psyched out by a particular theme of the next erotic collection that I leaked it to a local reporter but I don’t know what happened; when I began painting that theme, I became blank.  Nothing worked well.  Painting felt heavy weighted. Annoying.  A chore. An expectation. My excitement disappeared and in hindsight, I think I felt like I couldn’t do “that” again, “that” being this really awesome sexy painting collection.  Something felt off.

Rather than berate myself for a failing vision though, I decided to return to love and sensuality and that feminine core I try to convey through my work, painting and otherwise. The paintings from the past few months are good. I’m very happy with them.  I improved technically since I painted ART PORN so I’m particularly excited to see how it will affect this new erotic collection. I want more realism and detail in my paintings, more depth. Time and practice.

This said, I’m shelving the sensual painting for a few months and returning to porn. #celebrategoodtimes

I have no idea how many pieces will be in this new erotic collection or how long it will take or when or where I’ll show (Savannah deserves a good bit of elegant porn I still believe).  I’ve only begun my first painting and I realized I painted more the past few days than I have the past few weeks. It clicked. It feels right. That’s when you follow.  It feels like it’s flowing and that’s how  ART PORN felt.  I’m ready to dive back into creating art from porn and judging from the looks of the painting I’m working on now, the wow factor has resurrected. A little wow factor in life does wonders!



#artporn #savannah #erotica

#lovewins in “Stars & Stripes”, Art

Today I am very proud of America, and I am so damn deeply grateful her ultimate Justice still reigns.  May this land regain its strength and rise from its weights, constraints and liabilities.  I am overjoyed at the U.S. Supreme Court decision today announcing equal same-sex marriage. Coincidentally, I am also celebrating my 11th wedding anniversary today, June 26. I find this just awesome!

Marital bliss is a short-term proposition but commitment is long-term, and despite the US ruling equality in same sex marriage, this means nothing without the work involved to keep love at the forefront of a martial journey.  Marriage is hard work but if the hard work can pull  off changing law, hard work in a marriage will guarantee more opportunity for a blissful marriage – to all.

Congratulations to the LGBT community in the United States of America.  Today is a good day.

#lovewins #marriagequality #art

To celebrate, let me introduce “Stars & Stripes”, my newest painting I finished. Talk about great timing! :)

“Stars & Stripes”, 20x24x1.5 inches, Natural Earth Paint acrylic on canvas.

New painting "Stars & Stripes"

New painting “Stars & Stripes”, contact for inquiries.


Make your #dreams come true

Dream board day is around the corner, Sunday the 21st to be exact.  What is this day?

In short, about 8 to 10 yrs ago a really good friend of mine at the time introduced me to her family tradition of creating dream boards (or vision boards) on the summer solstice, the first official day of summer and the longest day of the year.  Not only did I love the dream board idea, I loved that it wasn’t part of the New Year resolution category and that it was half way from and to it so there was a course adjustment place on the timeline of this dream journey thing.  I’ve created a dream board every year since then and, they work!  I have achieved and acquired countless things, accomplishments, goals and dreams as a result of creating these dream boards.

What are dream boards?

Dream boards are basically collages made from magazine cut outs of pics that represent a goal, item or achievement or dream of making reality.  You can make one or several (I usually do one with several themes).  You can make independently themed dream boards such as one for health/fitness or career or material items, whatever.  It’s your dream(s) so you get to be the artist, the designer, the architect, the mastermind of your dream board!  Here’s a few examples from the early day when I was still searching for who I was and what the heck I wanted:



Here’s my 2013 dream board where I break it down for you:


It’s 2015 but a lot of the visuals here are part of my daily life now, minus the yoga which I’m having a tough time returning to after a wrist injury but the sun, the movement, the “live in the moment”, that’s all real now, not a dream…which leads me to the next question.

Why are they helpful?

When you place your dream board somewhere where you’ll look at it everyday and spend a few moments to really envision having the things visually represented on the dream-board each day, you tend to get them.  Sometimes you don’t get exactly what you wanted but a variation of it, a representation of it such as these examples of my past dreams:


Top pic (yellow) – in 2010 I wanted an awesome body.  So one day I quit smoking and hired a fitness trainer and in 3 months I had an awesome body (that journey here).  I didn’t get to keep that great body as in 2011 I became ill and in 2012 I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease (Hashimotos Thyroiditis) and I’ve been up and down weight wise ever since. Now in 2015 I am going to go for it one more time.

Lower pic (closet)– in 2010 when still living in Savannah, I had a fascination with this lower photo. Something between the shoes and the wood floor and the elegance of it, I felt extremely pulled to it.

Turns out a year later we moved to Wiesbaden and there was a fabulous designer shoe shop down the street I passed by almost every day. After a year of “one day I’ll buy those”, I finally saved up a ridiculous amount of money for glamorous shoes I had no where to wear and I bought them just because I loved them, because I rarely did that for myself (view shoes here)  And, oddly enough, the Wiesbaden flat we ended living in had the same wood floors as in the photo. Totally unexpected on both counts and very cool in the way they manifested.


Other times you get exactly what you wanted, such as these examples when I dreamed up the desire for a “brave art show” and a couple years later, ART PORN was born and shown!  Be careful what you ask for. Or be prepared!



The lettering on the window before a Savannah HOA demanded the sign be removed, despite curtains covering the inside artwork that a non-erotic art exhibition would not require.  Read about that by clicking this photo.

And this year, 2015, I created “Savannah Buzz” with the above “Art Porn” controversy (read national or local headlines) as heaven forbid PORN end up on the window as per the HOA association.

It’s so Bible Belt expected ART PORN had controversy; but that they fell for their own embarrassment-in-the-making with the term “art porn” rather than the art work itself really shows the silly nature of America’s South with sexuality.

I didn’t even start baiting and the school of conservative fish took – so, so easily they took.


THEN… there’s the road trip.

Originally I had hoped for a road trip to the Carolinas, the mountains but it didn’t feel right so instead chose to face some fears and I took my 17 y/o daughter on a mom/daughter Florida coast road trip 3 weeks before the dream board deadline came! Plus, it “brought together” an unexpected surprise of my reconnecting with my estranged family and long lost friends. That was a bomb of a surprise in this mix between Savannah’s Buzz and the Road Trip.


And the awesome trench coat.  I really wanted one for years and was saving up when, as a generous surprise, my best friend bought one for me as a birthday gift after seeing it on my dream board.

So, in some cases, you’re totally responsible for making your dream happen and in others, life gifts it in other ways.  It may be “Law of Attraction-ish” but this stuff works, people. It works.  It doesn’t work unless you do though.  Remember this Picasso quote: “Inspiration exists but it has to find us working.”  Inspirations are dreams.

The trick to making dream boards work:

When your dreams are wishy-washy or “open for interpretation”, life hands you such dreams. They may be okay or good but not quite exactly what you wanted.  Only you get to decide how much control (focus) you want on your dream journey, and note, it’s okay to change mid-journey.  These dream boards really help the visual understanding of what you really want and sometimes we think we know what we want but we really don’t.  As Tony Robbins says, “Clarity is power”.

Must I do them on June 21st, Summer Solstice?

No. You can pick a day out of a hat, really.  Do what you want when you want, but I suggest finding one day a year that is always, no matter what the circumstances, the day you make your dream board.  It will make a direct improvement and difference in your life.  It helps you stick to it, like a holiday.

How do I begin making one?

Easy. Buy magazines, get scissors, poster board, glue sticks, some snacks, feel good music and pick a day to go through the magazines and cut out what strikes you, moves you, motivates, excites or thrills you.  When done place it on the poster board in a way that suits your collective vision and glue it together.  Put it up somewhere that you’re forced to look at it each day like in the bathroom or by the coffee machine/ fridge, by your bed, and so on.  BIG TIP: trust your intuition in this process.

Last words:

I’m confident that in one year you’ll have achieved at least one of the represented photos on your dream board.  When your goals, wants and desires stare you in the face x amount of times a day, you either let the board fall when the tape wears off or you begin checking the pics off this year’s bucket list.

Now, these boards aren’t no miracle workers.  You are.  The boards just remind you of your purpose along the way.

Let me know how it goes for you. :) ~ Tatiana



#savannah  #artporn  #tvt  #dreamboard  #art

#tbt Sunset Swim art

#tbt “Sunset Swim”, 2013, painted in Wiesbaden, Germany when I was dreaming of sea, sun and sand while caged in the city. Now that I live on the GA coastline, I can get all the sea, sun and sand I want, sans the toplessness being I’m down here in the Bible Belt south. Life is about compromises.


This original pastel drawing – among my favorites – is still available and I’m selling it for a summer celebration price of $149!  AND I’m including shipping costs. AND a sturdy matte so it’s ready for you to pop it into a frame and hang.  So, so easy. :)

Write me if you’re interested in purchasing “Sunset Swim” and I’ll have it to you in a few days.

(9×12 inches, pastel on paper / matte size 12×16 inches with 9×12 inches opening)

Here’s a few “in the making” snapshots of “Sunset Swim” And the painting in the matting for size reference:



Give me an email if you want to buy this artwork for a limited time deal of $149 including shipping and matting.


New Art: “Heavenly Mind”

Heavenly Mind“, 30W x 40H x 1.5 inches, Natural Earth Paint acrylic

(large format, same sizing as my Art Porn painting collection).


Original painting, “Heavenly Mind”, by Tatiana von Tauber, May 2015

I was very compelled to paint, “Heavenly Mind” (and its second pairing “Heavenly Body” which is still in the works).  Both were unexpectedly just thrown at me intuitively.  I woke up one morning with the original conceptual I photographed back in 2011 at the forefront of my mind and the same day I went out to buy the large canvases for them.  It just had to be done – now.  It was like a strange scratch I had to take care of immediately!

I planned a solid black background with her white mask as the “pop” in the painting but I didn’t like the feeling of it – like an empty void around her – so I added the cosmic background for interest and the whole painting came to life, like an idea in the dynamic universe.

I’m very much into looking at the stars right now.  It might be a spring, let’s-be-outside-at-night thing but I don’t think we generally look up at the stars enough in our daily eves.  These “heavenly” paintings can fill a little of that void and spark our minds to dream and reach beyond the stars as well as ourselves.


New Art Porn Painting Additions

I decided to continue with the ART PORN theme. I also painted a portrait. What struck me interesting but at this point unsurprising, was that I was bored painting the portrait and so I turned back to painting nudity and sexuality.

“Homo erectus” (censored version) Natural Earth Paint acrylic on canvas

The gay market requested I paint homosexual themed art. This is my first. I love the title! I was beaming sunshine when it hit me.

Homo erectus

Homo erectus

“Her Lips”, (censored version) Natural Earth Paint acrylic on canvas

This painting was very difficult. The angles challenged me greatly, and that’s what I was seeking actually when I chose this image but it turned out much MORE challenging than I thought.  I feel like I upped a notch of capability with this one, and whenever I can nail a more difficult angle within a painting I feel like I can take on a more complex one next time.  It’s a great confidence booster when you get it right. When you get it wrong, it’s just part of the process to getting it right.


View the uncensored images on my website, You can bookmark this gallery as it will house all of the paintings with a porn like quality. Detailed info about each painting is located on each image when hovered over.  The original “ART PORN” gallery, along with all the narratives, press and show photos, comments, etc. is still live and accessible through this link: