The decision is final: we’re returning to the States.
My European adventure has been satisfied and I’m expated out! All it took was achieving the American Dream and then ditching it for the Euro roots I thought had the ooze to make life rich like molasses. Yes, well, the Euro dream turned out to not work and the American Dream turned out to have been the ticket. Who would have known though, had both not been lived for comparison? It was a risk and with it came sacrifice but the way in which the year and a half in Europe thus far has transformed my family and me has been enormous and so the best way to look at seeming mistakes is merely additional sidenote to life that must be taken in order one may tweak the road map ahead.
“Life is difficult”, said M. Scott Peck in “The Road Less Traveled”. As a previous bookseller, I’ve sold that book hundreds of times and never picked it up. Figures my psychologist quotes it all the time. I figured I could make headway if I just bought the damn book and read it. Fifteen years past my bookstore days, I confront the reality of that road less traveled I consciously embarked on many years ago and I understand everything differently now. There’s clarity in a way but the truth always seems to hurt and so the clarity is a slow process of acceptance – with a lot of profanity before it.
Certainly, the most difficult aspect of facing truth is realizing that Truth does in fact point to “Life is difficult”. This is true as well when we look in the natural world at animals, bugs, and plants, all pushing for survival. The most delicate flower must come up from the depths of the earth. As human beings our cognitive abilities place us higher than mere animals but have we become smarter or just better at the illusion and fooling ourselves?
Anyway, my thyroid medication hasn’t been balanced quite right yet and I’ve slipped – again. My dosage was increased a couple days ago and I wrote this while I had the energy for it. There’s a lot to say but none of it will expel itself. Sure, there’s a little me trying hold up the floodgates of words. The wise one in my head knows very well the potential of the verbal flood.
And so I paint and I’m generally silent because I’m working on personal healing or I’m not good to anyone.
Some good news linked below is I’ve completed THE ART CURE DIARIES Ebook and I’ve been titled a “world changer” in an upcoming new book by Renée Phillips . I’ve also nailed a “yes” for art workshops in the military community, the one the USO turned me down for. It’s through a different organization and since I’ve learned so much I haven’t yet shared (sorry!) about the “becoming an artist” process, I’m looking forward to doing some of that through my art workshops – and probably here in the future.
Somewhere out there I have an audience who still peeks in to see what’s going on. Thank you. I know this only because of WordPress stats and so since someone’s still interested and so long as that’s the case, I’ll push myself to write something, though pictures serve me best at this time in my life.
I’ve changed and I’m not quite thrilled just yet to break the cocoon.
1. I’ve managed some updates and changes for my website. Check it out at http://www.vontauber.com. What’s mainly new is I’ve finally registered The Art Cure Diaries with an official ISBN status, created an Ebook and rather hesitantly, a print on demand press book until I make further decisions about future publishing.
Also, for breast cancer patients in mind, I’ve left the book on full preview so if money is tight but depth of soul needs a lifeline of inspiration, you can view it online free. I think everyone should have free access to lifelines and inspiration.
View The Art Cure Diaries here.
2. I’ve completed The Art Cure page on my website. Please pass along to Breast Cancer patients or survivors!!
3. I’ve been honored by a mention as a “world changer” in Renée Phillips wonderful new book, “Vision, Passion & Purpose: ARTISTS AS World Changers”! Check it out here for ideas on how art creates positive change.
4. Plus, if you’ve not visited in a while, I have some beautiful new artwork available. I’m now working on my 4th Archangel painting. I hope to finish & post this weekend.
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